My decree nisi will be declared on the 19th July. This week Mark should submit the paperwork to be removed from the mortgage. He looks well, less stressed, happier. There we are then. That whole chapter of my life nearly over.
I feel strangely sad about it all. Sad that we wanted to make each other happy and share a life, but it’s taken us divorcing and pursuing our own lives to find ways to be happy. I’m sad that someone I once loved in my own way and could have enjoyed a friendship with is, ostensibly, no longer going to be part of my life.
All in all it’s ok. We are both doing better, moving forward with our lives with a momentum we could never have achieved together. That’s good, and our future’s are bright and full of good things. Still. I’m taking a moment to be sorry for everything that wasn’t, and glad that we recognised it never would be sooner rather than later.